Why?

A long-time lurker and sometime commentator around the OC, I take the plunge.

Late last summer, a routine quarterly endo visit revealed the first of a string of rising A1cs. At first I blamed it on the relaxed routine of summer and surmized the return to school routine would get us back on track. Not so. At one point during the next quarter, Peony complained about a funny numbness in her toes. I didn't put two and two together until the endo did. Scary. We left that visit energized to reverse the trend by going back to the basics and doing a better job of counting carbs. I got some push back for using "the book", but generally I thought we did well. Things did not improve at the next visit and in fact got worse. The pump and meter download showed she was high 70 percent of the time, low 20 percent of the time and in range 10 percent of the time. I gasped. The endo said "I know why" as she showed me the graph showing bolus amounts which flat-lined at 0. ZERO! No boluses for four and five days straight. She "forgot"!!! We left with her promise to do better. That brings us to eight weeks later, this Monday, June 15, 2009. The A1c is up and again no boluses. I lost it. Firmly explaining that this is not a matter of forgetting, it is a choice. I cried. She sat emotionless. I posted on Juvenation and was amazed to have multiple responses from women who quit bolusing at 13 or later. There is a need for conversation and advice and thus, this blog.
More later.